The Beginning

Last week I showed up at the Y in Simpsonville and I was super disappointed not to have been one of the 50 chosen for the RBL. I was also a bit disappointed that all the training was taking place so far from my house.  Right now, it’s hard for me to see things as good or positive. This has been a hard year. A hard 2 years. And my health has not been something that has been easy to take care of. Weighing in last week was horrible. I think the scale is something I try to avoid because if I know what that number is I’ll be obligated to do something about it. And I really don’t know what to do about it. The amount I have to lose is so big- at least 60 pounds. Where do I start? I’ve lost that much before, but the idea of doing it all again and at my age ( I sound like I am 100!) feels insurmountable. Some days, I feel 100 years old. I lost a big amount of weigh after having my 4th child 12 years ago. I ran and did Weight Watchers. I know that there are lots of apps and exercise and eating right can work wonders. I feel like my desire has left me. I feel like everything is hard. Really hard. I weighed in and started having allergy symptoms Thursday. I left town for a conference over the weekend and came home to more symptoms and a fever by Monday night. That has made it hard to eat or do anything really but sleep. Today was the first day I felt semi-normal. I think my goal for this week is to plan some healthy breakfasts and a grocery list for them. I am starting to watch my grandbaby 2 days a week and that will make my already bursting schedule explode. Exercise has always mattered to me even as heavy as I am . It’s my way to decompress. So, I am looking forward to the first chance to run/walk with the group Saturday. I will start using myfitnesspal to track my food. Starts. That is what I need. Starts, Oh and a jog stroller …

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  1. You’re not alone. I know how that feels. And the change in weather messes with my sinuses so I can feel sick or have a sore throat for 2 weeks in a row. And when I do get sick it feels like it just won’t pass, and my desire to exercise disappears into thin air.
    Keep at it!

  2. It’s not easy to admit the struggle part. I hear your frustrations and will pray for some relief and that God will find clear paths in your schedule to carve out “you time” and exercise.

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