Depression & Anxiety….
I hope you guys don’t mind me getting really honest here.. I want to talk about a subject that makes some people uncomfortable, and that some people don’t like to talk about.. And that is Depression & Anxiety….
I have for as long as I can remember struggled with this off and on though out my 31 years… Growing up I had a pretty traumatic childhood, and have been through alot in my adult years as well.. Also with my 2 girls I had post pardum and that didn’t help things… I would get panic atracks almost everyday.. There were times that my husband would come home from work to find me in a fetal position on our bed not being able to talk or move… There were days that I wouldnt want to get out of bed, but I had 2 daughters that needed me.. I began living for bed time everyday. Sleep and food became my escape.
About 3 years ago I got put on medication. My husband finally convinced me that it was ok and that sometimes you do need it. I always was scared to be put on anything because growing up I was taught to get over your problems and that going on medication was a bad thing. The medication does help keep the depression and panic attacks somewhat at bay… However I still struggle with both every day..
I started my workouts last week and I began to notice something… I have had 1 panic attack this past week and my mood has drastically been lifted. Which is amazing for me, because I would have 1 or more panic attacks a day… As I am typing this the tears are falling because I am so thankful for this opportunity.. When I started I had no idea that this process would help me like it has and it’s just getting started! I look foward to seeing myself in April, and seeing how much I will have changed both on the outside and on the inside as well.