Depression & Anxiety….

I hope you guys don’t mind me getting really honest here.. I want to talk about a subject that makes some people uncomfortable, and that some people don’t like to talk about.. And that is Depression & Anxiety….

I have for as long as I can remember struggled with this off and on though out my 31 years… Growing up I had a pretty traumatic childhood, and have been through alot in my adult years as well.. Also with my 2 girls I had post pardum and that didn’t help things… I would get panic atracks almost everyday.. There were times that my husband would come home from work to find me in a fetal position on our bed not being able to talk or move… There were days that I wouldnt want to get out of bed, but I had 2 daughters that needed me.. I began living for bed time everyday. Sleep and food became my escape.

About 3 years ago I got put on medication. My husband finally convinced me that it was ok and that sometimes you do need it. I always was scared to be put on anything because growing up I was taught to get over your problems and that going on medication was a bad thing. The medication does help keep the depression and panic attacks somewhat at bay… However I still struggle with both every day..

I started my workouts last week and I began to notice something… I have had 1 panic attack this past week and my mood has drastically been lifted. Which is amazing for me,  because I would have  1 or more panic attacks a day… As I  am typing this the tears are falling because I am so thankful for this opportunity.. When I started I had no idea that this process would help me like it has and it’s just getting started! I look foward to seeing myself in April, and seeing how much I will have changed both on the outside and on the inside as well.

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6 replies »

  1. Sweet girl, you are so strong to just to be able to share this. My anxiety did not start until i was older and had heart surgery. I never understood the struggle until thenOne day at a time. So excited to get to share this journey with you. Always here for you. God’s got this

  2. What an amazing testimony. There’s such a stigma for depression and anxiety. There is absolutely nothing wrong with taking medication to put your chemicals back into balance! and I’m sure your body and mind are loving the rush of endorphins from working out. I applaud you for being brave enough to share your story and for pushing yourself to workout, because I know some days even the thought of that can be overwhelming. I’m definitely praying for your journey!

  3. Its always a Joy to see you on the Treadmill working your butt off and super focused.. My 18 yr old Daughter has both severe anxiety and depression so I can totally understand at least from an outsiders position.. Keep hanging in there and see ya soon at the Treadmill

  4. Your words touch my heart. I have shared with several people close to me. How emotional exercise can get for me. There are moments I just want to break down in complete tears or I hit that “high” joyous laughter. I am glad this has begun as a healing journey for you. I will pray for continued success and breakthroughs! Thank you for sharing your story!

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