EMDR and a breakthrough!
EMDR is Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing. EMDR is a psychotherapy that enables people to heal from the systems of emotional distress that are results of disturbing life experiences. From what my therapist told me it is taking the feeling away from the abuse. When somebody is abused they take a negative belief with them and that negative belief stays with them until it gets taken away with EMDR. Well I had my second session of EMDR yesterday and we were battling my negative belief that I am not good enough and I hit a breakthrough!! The image in my head was big me picking up little me and telling little me you are worth it and I love you and I felt free after that. I started crying and I feel now like I am good enough and I am worth it. This is not the end of EMDR because I have a couple more beliefs to deal with but I am so glad it is working!
The side effects of EMDR have hit me today though. My therapist told me I would be tired and boy do I feel it. I’m trying not to let it get me down and away from working out but it is kind of hard when your body is tired and your brain wants you to work out. At least today is not a running day I just have to do the at home workout. I just wanted to say thanks also to the people that are following me through this journey and supporting me. It really means a lot and helps me keep going.