Being known for being the “big girl,” just isn’t that fun. Often times we put descriptions on people without realizing how they can hurt. Growing up I often heard how I had a pretty face, and if I would just lose some weight I would be so pretty. People say this to me as a compliment, as if my weight defines me. Well, actually I let it for most of my life. I let what others said/say and think about me, control me. I would often laugh at myself before they had a chance too. I would and still often do, make the jokes before they can. What people don’t know is that behind my jokes is a broken person. Someone who is tired of always being called fat, and just laughing it off with my big personality and confidence that I mask. I have let society define who I am as a person. I have allowed others to ok to call me the “big girl.” My name is Ashlee… that’s my story, and this is my journey!
What made me want to start this jorney to becoming a better me? After 32 years, why now? It’s simple… my kids. I have 4 children ages 4-11, so I guess you can imagine a busy house! My kids are very active and love being involved in as many activities as possible. My husband works super hard and is often gone with work so usually I’m mom with 4 kids juggling life, and trying to hold down the fort. I grew up where my parents would fix 3 full course meals a day. Good ole country cooking! My dad taught me how to cook, and he didn’t teach me the healthy way to make greens and cornbread. I’ve loved food from my first bite! I still do! I lived to eat, and I decided I wanted to live to LIVE! Seeing how much my kids need me, and knowing how active they are inspired me. I got inspired to become a healthier me! I still love food, and I still love to cook. Over the past month I have been trying new, healthier recipes along with exercising! Joining RBL was a game changer… I’m Ashlee and this is my Comeback.
When I told my family I was going to be joining RBL everyone was so excited and happy for me! Being a busy wife and mom is hard work, and I often put their needs before my own. Going to the gym I don’t have that guilt of doing something for myself that I know a lot of mom’s feel when they take time to rest or better themselves. I don’t have the guilt because my family gets to get healthy along side me, and while I have an hour or two of kidfree workout we all are enjoying ourselves! It’s a win, win! I’ll be honest it’s not easy to go to the gym when you’re tired, but I’ve never left the gym regretting that I went! It’s not easy changing up your diet, and trying to eat healthy. Since this is a lifestyle journey to health, not a diet I realize I’m going to have bad days. I didn’t start this 4 weeks ago and change overnight. It’s still a struggle when I’m super tired to not just stop at McDonald’s and pick up some burgers. Have I? Yes. Will I again? Probably, but the difference is now I have encouragement to make better food choices and the inspiration from my family to do so also. This is my comeback… my journey isn’t over, but I’m not where I was when I started…
God has blessed me so much with a wonderful family, great friends and a wonderful support system. It’s my turn to take His temple and use it for His glory. Maybe you’re reading this and don’t know where to start… Find your inspiration, your WHY, and tell your story, share your jorney and make a comeback! Attached is a picture of my WHY! Share yours with me!