Disappointment and Discouraged
What is this week 4, 5, I don’t know, what I do know is that I’ve hit a rough patch and it’s all because of that doggone scale. I am working out at the Y, eating right but it seems as if my efforts are not matching my results. I know I should not but I weight myself around 2-3 times a day. I want to lose weight, I want to be healthy, I want to feel better about myself but at this point it’s hard. I’m not one to voice a lot of personal things with everyone so I keep a lot of things bottle up. I have a great team at the Verdae Y, they are so friendly and encouraging and I know that they will do all that’s in their power to help. I can genuinely say I love these guys. I can count on Team Verdae to text something to encourage me but I seem to cannot encourage myself. Like I’ve said in an earlier post I have several medical issues that are tied to weight. I am so over taking medication to maintain my health. I love cycling and this past weekend I went on a ride and rode 31 miles, however, when I finished and got into my car I had an asthma attack. This is the 1st one I’ve ever had since being diagnosed with adult onset asthma. It was very scary, I had to go to the er for a breathing treatment. I said all of that to say that I want to lose weight so bad that I tend to push myself too hard. But I close this blog inspired with my grandmother’s favorite scripture, Psalms 121:1-2 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.