I started a new devotion to go along with this journey. It is called Made to Crave by Lisa Terkeurst and already after just one day it spoke to me. Listen to her words…
I had to get honest enough to admit it that I relied on food more than I relied on God. I craved food more than I craved God. Chocolate was my comfort and deliverer. Cookies were my reward. Salty chips were my joy. Food was what I turned to in times of stress, sadness, and even in times of happiness.
I knew it was something God was challenging me to surrender to His control. Really surrender. Surrender to the point where I’d make radical changes for the sake of my spiritual health perhaps even more than my physical health.
Part of my surrender was asking myself a different question, a really raw question. May I ask you this same question? Is it possible we love and rely on food more that we love and rely on God.
That is me loving and relying on food more than God. Heart conviction time right there. Wow! Then I went to church this morning and Pastor Chris was talking about living for Christ. As he was preaching he said it isn’t about asking for forgiveness because Christ gave us that when He died on the cross but rather us repent of our sins and turning from them so we can live for Christ. Wow double heart conviction! Lord, I repent of loving and relying on food as my comfort instead of running to you. That stops today and I am making new choices and relying on You.