Good morning my brothers and sisters. This morning I had my skype interview with the HisRadio crew. That was the most nervous I have ever been to do anything.lol But it was really nice to be able to share a part of my story with you guys. I wanted to talk about one specific question I was asked and that was about the time right before I moved back to Greenville. I was living at Georgia at the time. I lived there for about three years but honestly it felt like an eternity. It was the first time I was on my own without my family. My primary focus was work and school which doesn’t sound bad but I left no time for God. I let a lot of things of this world consume me to the point I didn’t feel like a person anymore. When I describe it to people I say I felt like a zombie. To the world I looked like I was just another 23 year old girl. My friends and family couldn’t even comprehend the amount of sadness I was going through because I couldn’t. I was working as a receptionist at a dentist office making great money. I was living with one of my best friends. I could come and go as I pleased. I was dating someone who I thought was the one. The checklist I made in my head was being checked off but I still felt empty. I was so desperate one day that I went to my back porch because I felt like I couldn’t breathe inside. I was watching the leaves move because of the wind. I can’t tell you the exact date but I can tell you the exact moment everything changed. It felt like the Elevation Worship song. The atmosphere started to change. I didn’t feel alone but I felt comforted to the point I started to cry. It felt like everything stopped and I just remembered something my grandma use to tell me when I was little. “If God takes care of the plants and makes sure they have sunlight and rain why don’t you think he will take care of you.” Then it was like the Holy Spirit started to pray for me. I started to pray for doors to close. And I was thinking wait I want doors to open. Then I started to pray for God to remove people from my life who were being tripping stones. Then all of a sudden I was smacked with the reality that the things that were giving me a false sense of security were actually anchors dragging me down. I was no longer questioning my prayer but praying more desperately. I knew my life depended on it. After the prayer was over I felt like a new person. Nothing had changed but I knew they would and I just needed to wait on God’s timing. Within a month of doing that prayer I was back in Greenville. The road back wasn’t easy. I had to lose friends, the person I was dating, my good paying job and at times when people around me were doubting what God was doing I just thought of the story of Job. And let me tell you when God takes something out of your life he replaces it with something that isn’t only better but the best. I now have a career at a christian company that I absolutely love. I’m surrounded by loving brothers and sisters. Also, God had a plan for all that heartache and pain I went through. I use that as testimonies to teach my kids the importance of having a relationship with God. Don’t get me wrong my life isn’t perfect. Last July my grandmother passed away after being in and out of the hospital for two months, my uncle is in the last stages of Alzheimer’s without any sign of a cure, and there are days I just feel like everything I am in is too much to handle. The amazing thing is God never said it would be easy. He did say that through him all things are possible. He will go before us and clear a path. Well I thank you for reading this extremely long post but it was something in my heart I needed to share with you.
Until tomorrow my brothers and sisters.
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