I didn’t sign up for this!

I didn’t sign up for this! But it is part of the package. Planning for a lifestyle change can be a challenge and it doesn’t happen overnight, but like everything else, we don’t gain weight overnight. When I signed up for the challenge, I wasn’t thinking of the details. Every minute of my day has become so much more valuable.

The first week that we started RBL, I had to carefully plan all of my evenings to incorporate hair care, housekeeping, laundry days, and a social life!  After I worked through that for the first two weeks, I am now working on a different plan. I have started to pack my snacks and plan out my meals more accordingly.

I don’t think I could have made all of these changes within the first week or two. Since it’s a lifestyle change, I’m looking for ways to establish new routines. Plenty of people have a lot of good advice; however, we all live different lives and I need to find out what works for me. In the midst of it all, I’m also looking for a routine with a solid foundation. I don’t want to fail at this, I want to listen to teachings and follow them for a lifetime. I’m so thankful for Kiara, Shawnece, and the Y floor staff. They are always willing to teach and help when I have questions. As I think of the past four weeks, I am reminded of this scripture:

“Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand.  When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.”

Matthew 7: 24-27

I want my new lifestyle to be built on a solid rock. The teachings of trainers, and of course, the teachings of my Savior.  I don’t want to be foolish and waste my time, or waste a spot in the program. I don’t want my house, life or body to collapse and crash. With all of that being said, I leave my house every morning with three bags. I walk out with my gym bag, my lunch bag, and my personal bag. Yeah, it might seem like a lot, but if it that’s what it takes, I will do it.

The love/hate relationship

It’s a love/hate relationship.

Today is day 6 of working out. I actually lost 2 two pound last week and I’m thrilled! I could not believe the numbers on the scale! Let me tell you about the love/hate relationship that I have. As I have gained continuous weight in the past 10 years, I’ve had to move the seat in my car further and further back. I’m not that tall and at this point, my legs cannot stretch anymore to reach the pedals. For the first time in 10 years I actually have a little extra space between my belly and the steering wheel. I love the little extra amount of space; however, I hate the amount of crunches that I have to do. They are not easy, but very motivating.

I sit at work for hours at a time and my posture has been improving. I also have a little extra space between my belly and my desk. Sitting at my office chair is becoming a little bit uncomfortable because my body wants to move.

If you’re like me, let me go ahead and remind you that it is totally worth it! Even starting out with 10 and increasing the number as the days go by, you will see the difference.  Please share your story with me, we’ll laugh together.

“I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining (lots of straining) toward what is ahead”

Philippians 3:13

Nice shoes!

A few years ago I participated in a women’s conference titled “What shoes will I wear?” We talked about the different types of “shoes” that women wear throughout their lives and the need to exchange them once we out grow them. We talked about the warrior boots and the Cinderella slipper among many others. My wellness coach laughed when I explained to her that I do not own a single pair of sneakers. On the contrary to my high school days when a collection of Nikes sat at the bottom of my closet, 14 years later, I out grew that stage of my life. Today I own lots of boots, wedges, sandals and flats.

So for my first workout, I had to wear a pair of loaned sneakers, more precisely, my mother’s shoes. Thank God she thinks of everything; she had them ready for me before I walked out. As I think about my mother’s shoes, I can see the need for me to step into a different set of “shoes”. Physically and spiritually, if I don’t take on this challenge, no one else will do it for me. Encouraging messages and conversations do help; however, I feel responsible for making a life style change.

This entire week I feel a lot closer to God. At the end of the day, I can’t hide anything from Him! He knows my victories and my weaknesses but in the midst of all I am reminded: The Lord makes firm the steps of the one who delights in him; though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the Lord upholds him with his hand. Psalm 37:23-24

What shoes will you wear?

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“It’s public now. The world knows your story. You are going to fail at this again. Why are you even trying? How embarrassing.” A voice repeated these thoughts into my mind like a broken record. I know that voice. I know the voice of the enemy. It’s far too familiar. He has tried many times to bring me down. In the past he succeed. But not today. Today I know that I am “fearfully and wonderfully made”. Today I know that a high price was paid for my freedom. For a minute I stayed in bed contemplating the social media post that I shared the night before about RBL. I thought of the tears, the hugs, and all the encouraging words. I’ve had a lot of conversations with God throughout my time as a christian; however, today I have a different prayer. Today I “demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and (I) take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ”. Christ is my King, He is my life. I don’t need to be afraid, ashamed or embarrassed, my thoughts will be renewed daily in Christ.

2 Corinthians 10:5 NIV